I'm not going to lie... I know I'm not a popular blogger in the blogging world, but...... this give away reminded me how much of a big loser I really am... hahaha.... 2 people signed up since Sunday but you know what... life goes on! I didn't start a blog to be a popular blogger I started it to document my families ups and downs and changes...
It's been pouring rain for the last 2 days... so much so that our backyard is flooded like this...
Snakes... I am absolutely terrified of snakes.... as a child (okay sometimes even as an adult shh) I would have nightmares of snakes attacking me or sleeping in my bed. And when I was a kid one time... my grandparents were watching one of those shows on at night about like cops or animal stories on discovery or something and the guy went in the bathroom and a snake came up out of his toilet!!!!!!!! I couldn't pee without staring over my shoulder for years.... sometimes still.... again shh... haha it's kind of ridic... even just looking at pics... I cringe
Sea animals... I love being in the water but I cannot think about any sort of creepy animals.. the moment I do... or worse I see one... I am out.. .I don't know what it is but I totally freak
spiders.... I am become more afraid of them in my old age and not so much seeing and killing them but more that someone in my house... esp my baby will be bitten by one and it will be a bad one and will cause serious problems! scary!
kidnappers,robbers,rapist,bad people -- yeah I literally would lay awake tossing and turning in my misery as I thought I heard or saw someone as a kid and even as I got older because my my parents watching like america's most wanted or even just a tv show about bad people... I watched criminal minds a lot with my fam while I was living in MN and when I came out here alone to house hunt I literally was such a mess and so anxious to be alone in a hotel in a town I didn't know... it was insane so now... I try not to watch that stuff.
I don't know the name to put on this but I think the best way would be being judged... I am always so weird about what people will think of me... what I am wearing what I am saying what I am doing all that stuff... LUCKILY for me... since becoming a Christian I am learning more and more to lean on God and know that he is what truly matters and as long as I am pleasing to him people WILL think I am awkward and weird but who cares because I'm a daughter of the king!
Not being able to have anymore babies... I am totally scared that because of the episode I had with ovarian cysts or whatever other terrible stuff could happen or even simply that my husband won't want more that I may not be able to have more kids... I want babies... it goes down to the very heart of me!
car crashes... oh my goodness I am TERRIFIED of car crashes... small big you name it I am sooo scared. I drive extra cautious and espcially in the rain I am super careful and it REALLY upsets me when other people have zero cares or cautions about driving in bath weather and are willing to put others at risk...
raw meat.... okay its not really a FEAR but oh my word does it gross me out... esp the fatty stuff. blahhh just thinking about it makes me want to throw up.. I think I waste more meat than necessary trying to get the nasty parts off... I also waste a lot of papertowels from washing my hands so much while cooking with it...
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