I am a girl who loves to do "all the things" I love to be involved in everything, to help with everything, and to do everything... but let's be honest... If I am going to be really good at a few things I can't be doing "all the things." God has made it really clear to me in the direction I need to go (see previous post about where I am at right now here). And if I am going to be in all THOSE things and be involved in all the things in my husband and children's lives... then I have to take a step back from other things.
God has been pointing me in the direction of something I needed to do to approach those things... There are some things that I needed to start doing and some things that I sadly needed to stop doing... and can I just say that I didn't want to do them? There are some big things that have needed to take place for a while.. and I really put them off. Even though God was making it clear to me what needed to happen. I was anxious about doing them. Sad about doing them. Worried about doing them. Because I know that some of these thins are going to disappoint people, are going to inconvenience people, and may even confuse people.
I am a people pleaser by nature... but you know what I have learned? I am also a God pleaser. And He is who I need to please first. He is who I WANT to please first. He is the one who DESERVES to be pleased first. So I have spent some time preparing. Praying about things so that God would make everything incredibly clear to me that needed to happen. So that He would show me where exactly I needed to step up, and where I needed to step down. So that He would prepare people for the things that would come. The kind of days where I found myself laying awake at 2am praying these prayers and then asking God to ease my heart and allow me to rest. And you know what? He did.
As I prepared to make some of these first steps of please God and following His lead I asked others to pray for me. I asked others to keep me and others in their prayers. And I asked God to continue to prepare the way. And today He helped me to see that He was going to show up in these things, in ALL my things. And make them all His things.
As I walked through the day I was uneasy again but was trusting Him anyways, and God showed up so manyyy times in the most unexpected of ways. In a commercial that reminded us of God's purpose, in a verse I read in my devotional, in something my mom said to me over the phone. He eased my heart through out my day when I wasn't even asking anymore. He KNEW that I needed it and He did it before I asked. He showed up, He gave me His peace.
The thing is He ALWAYS shows up! Did you know that? He shows up even when we don't realize it. And He is there even when we don't acknowledge Him. But sometimes our sin separates us from Him so strongly that we don't realize it. Sometime we can't clearly hear and decipher His words because our sin is so much louder. But when you begin to seek Him daily. When you regular put your sin on the alter (because we sin every day... we're humans and it's what we do..) When you start to pray, read His work, and look for Him daily. You begin to see Him show up in everything. Things that may have just slip by any other day, begin to show His face. When you begin to faithfully align your life plans to His life plans and lead for your life, to seek His call, and serve Him in that call... and then to TRUST Him with all the details.... even the hard ones that you don't want to follow.... He shows up.
Today in the devotional Jesus Calling by Sarah Young I read this .... "I want you to learn a new habit. Try saying, "I trust You, Jesus" in response to whatever happens to you. If there is time, think about who I am in all My Power and Glory; ponder also the depth and breadth of My Love for you. This simple practice will help you see Me in every situation, acknowledge My sovereign control over the universe. When you view events from this perspective -- through the Light of My universal Presence-- fear loses its grip on you. Adverse circumstances become growth opportunities when you affirm your truth in Me no matter what. You receive blessings gratefully, realizing they flow directly from My hand of grace. You continual assertion of trusting Me will strengthen our relationship and keep you close to me."
I know tonight at the end of my night that my trusting His plan, my obedience to His word, has strengthened my relationship with Him, my Abba daddy. And He reaffirmed me in this devotional today.
Psalm 139:7-12 says
"7Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you."
He's every where and He's holding me steady. In this life where I desire to do all the things, He holds on to me and directs my steps. I am ever in His presence and when something scares me or discourages me... He shows back up time and time again to encourage me to remind me that I need not fear. And to remind me that my obedience just brings me tighter into His embrace.
I pray you find yourself in this tight embrace today too, friends.
For His Glory,